lørdag den 26. april 2008

Om hvordan tanker bor

Don Everts har skrevet en lille bog, der hedder "All the ideas living in my head: One guy's musings about the truth". Han fortaeller om, hvordan hans hoved er et hus, og hvordan tankerne er delt op i Permanent Residents og Pointy Ideas og Sexy Ideas og-og-og, og hver gang, en ny ide banker paa doeren med sin sovepose, kalder Don sammen til husmoede, for at de kan finde ud af, om det er en ide, der kan blive boende, eller om den maa finde et andet hus. De socialiserer med hinanden og fortaeller historier og flirter og indretter sig i et socialt hierarki.

Der staar det her paa side 48 og 49:
"I remember the first time I honestly admitted that even though I believed that God loved me, I had a hard time feeling that with my heart. At the time it seemed like a difference between what I believed and what I felt. A battle between my head and my heart. But now I'd say it's more that GOD LOVES ME had moved into my head, but YOU ARE NOT LOVABLE was another idea already living up there!
And while it was true, in one sense, that I "believed" God loved me (that idea was in my head), it was also true that I "believed" that I was not lovable (that idea was also living up there). And for whatever reason, YOU ARE NOT LOVABLE's story kept winning out. I think my wounded heart made me predisposed against GOD LOVES ME. And so YOU ARE NOT LOVABLE had Seniority Status and GOD LOVES ME kept being put in its place in the living room in my head. Or it kept getting kicked out of my head. Or something like that."

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